Pictures by RYDER

Nice day today!

Saturday...Me and Ryder slept in until 9:00 and it felt great. No more cleaning old houses, no more cleaning out yucky apartments. Bryan is all out of his rental. And I got rid of Tami and the apartment. She did call yesterday and yelled at me all about her problems that I caused. Well I let her have it! and it felt GOOD! I am done with her forever. Whoo Hooo!

Tuesday

Had a good day at work, even tho all my fish have died over that past two weeks. I am now done with fish and I made my aquarium into a terrarium.. It looks really cool.
Spent a few hours helping Bryan clean out the old house. Lots and lots of stuff but he is getting closer. It will be nice for him to be all done, then he can concentrate on working on his new house.

Easter Sunday

Had a nice quiet Easter dinner... with all the Tami business going on, it's hard to relax. She is in a mental hospital after attempted suicide. And then the apartment calls me and says her boyfriend and his friends have been escorted off the property. So that leaves me with the cleaning . And the place was a sick mess. Words can not explain it. Went over Sunday morning to clean and Sunday evening. Much more to do.
But the worst part of the day was looking at my niece's Easter photos on facebook at my Mother In Law's house and seeing that Matt and Lesely were there. Talk about a knife in my back. I don't know what the hell is going on, but why would she invite them without letting us know. I would have loved to have seen MY son that I badly miss. But no, she had to go behind our backs. And of course we couldn't go over, because of the Tami mess. But I would have made the time to go over just to see Matt...
Damn I just don't understand why this is all happening. If it wasn't for Ryder and Bryan I would sell my house and go live far away in the woods and never shower again. Sometimes your own family can just become too much. What is wrong with me and why is this all happening????

FRIDAY!

The sun is shining and I'm staying home today! Yipeee.... I think I will take a nice long shower. Get dressed of course. Clean up my kitchen table. Get ready for Easter Sunday Dinner. And then I will clean the floors. Put things away. And all the while I will be listening to Alan Jackson!
Then when Ryder comes over this afternoon we will go outside, he can ride his trike and I just might do some weeding. Also need to clean front deck, we had bird feeders out all winter and now the deck is full of bird poop. The birds keep coming back and they can't find any food but the still poop everywhere!
What a FANTASTIC Friday!

Oh had a great dinner last night with Jackie at a new place in Lacey. It was great to talk to Jackie, I miss seeing her everyday. She always gave me great advice and she always listens and never ever judges me. Now that's a great friend!

Ryder Silly Faces

Think Positive

Yesterday I worked at thinking postitive and not talking crap about anyone. It's a hard thing to do, since I have been doing it forever! But I am working on it.
I need to work on getting the stress out of my life. It's just too much and I don't like being unahppy. I have always been a very happy person. And these days I find myself crying and feeling down a lot.
I going to read  the THE SECRET and see if that can help me out.

Plus, each evening I'm going to make a point and taking one hour just for me to read! No TV, just read.
Now that sounds relaxing. I would also like to get out into my garden and start weeding... I love that!

Done talking about diets....

Man I suck at staying on a diet... Need to stop talking about it. Had a terrible weekend, actually the last 11 days I spent over at Bryan & Ashley's new house, painting and moving and cleaning. Their house looks great. But I have decided I need to try to be a better person and stop making comments about others. No matter how worthless they make me feel. I need to keep my comments to myself. And that's that. I will have to find another way to vent. For one I need to start taking care of myself and exercise and I'd love to get out in my garden and get some work done there.
I don't understand why some people can say mean things to me, and when I respond I am a terrible person. I just don't get it.
Apparently I am not allowed to speak, only allowed to be made to feel terrible and then keep my mouth shut.
Well that's all for now. Nothing about dieting today.

Day 2 @ Body Camp Challenge

Feeling good, not really hungry. Today I had:

B:  egg/sausage cup & sausage
L:  SF pudding & cheese
S:  sunflower seeds & diet Pepsi

I think for dinner I will have chicken and ? ~I really need to eat some veggies. I will go to the store and get some broccoli, that actually sounds good.

I have been drinking about 52 oz of water, need to bump that up to 64.

Day 1 new plan

OK I found a new plan!! Whoo Hoo It's called Body Camp Challenge.
So for the next two weeks.... It's NO carbs, No Sugar which is good. I can have meat, cheese, eggs, veggies. Sugar free jello and fudge bars and other foods I can't remember right now.
But since about the only veggy I like is green beans. I might have to go out on a limb and try something new!
Also, we are having a Biggest Loser Competition at work. So there's a little bit of an incentive for me.
I think I can handle this. It's only 2 weeks. I'm a big girl and that's not very long....