At the train tracks with my buddy....

Beautiful Day

Well I finally am rid of Tami! That feels so great... She is such a damaged and terrible person. Now her boyfriend JR has been calling us and telling us more terrible things about her and I told him to get as far away from her as possible, he tells me they broke up but I don't think they did. Oh well, so what, his life is not my problem and now her life is not my problem. They are perfet for eachother, they can slowly destroy one another.
So that's my update on Tami and hopefully the last time I have to speak of her.

Pictures by RYDER

Nice day today!

Saturday...Me and Ryder slept in until 9:00 and it felt great. No more cleaning old houses, no more cleaning out yucky apartments. Bryan is all out of his rental. And I got rid of Tami and the apartment. She did call yesterday and yelled at me all about her problems that I caused. Well I let her have it! and it felt GOOD! I am done with her forever. Whoo Hooo!

Tuesday

Had a good day at work, even tho all my fish have died over that past two weeks. I am now done with fish and I made my aquarium into a terrarium.. It looks really cool.
Spent a few hours helping Bryan clean out the old house. Lots and lots of stuff but he is getting closer. It will be nice for him to be all done, then he can concentrate on working on his new house.

Easter Sunday

Had a nice quiet Easter dinner... with all the Tami business going on, it's hard to relax. She is in a mental hospital after attempted suicide. And then the apartment calls me and says her boyfriend and his friends have been escorted off the property. So that leaves me with the cleaning . And the place was a sick mess. Words can not explain it. Went over Sunday morning to clean and Sunday evening. Much more to do.
But the worst part of the day was looking at my niece's Easter photos on facebook at my Mother In Law's house and seeing that Matt and Lesely were there. Talk about a knife in my back. I don't know what the hell is going on, but why would she invite them without letting us know. I would have loved to have seen MY son that I badly miss. But no, she had to go behind our backs. And of course we couldn't go over, because of the Tami mess. But I would have made the time to go over just to see Matt...
Damn I just don't understand why this is all happening. If it wasn't for Ryder and Bryan I would sell my house and go live far away in the woods and never shower again. Sometimes your own family can just become too much. What is wrong with me and why is this all happening????

FRIDAY!

The sun is shining and I'm staying home today! Yipeee.... I think I will take a nice long shower. Get dressed of course. Clean up my kitchen table. Get ready for Easter Sunday Dinner. And then I will clean the floors. Put things away. And all the while I will be listening to Alan Jackson!
Then when Ryder comes over this afternoon we will go outside, he can ride his trike and I just might do some weeding. Also need to clean front deck, we had bird feeders out all winter and now the deck is full of bird poop. The birds keep coming back and they can't find any food but the still poop everywhere!
What a FANTASTIC Friday!

Oh had a great dinner last night with Jackie at a new place in Lacey. It was great to talk to Jackie, I miss seeing her everyday. She always gave me great advice and she always listens and never ever judges me. Now that's a great friend!

Ryder Silly Faces

Think Positive

Yesterday I worked at thinking postitive and not talking crap about anyone. It's a hard thing to do, since I have been doing it forever! But I am working on it.
I need to work on getting the stress out of my life. It's just too much and I don't like being unahppy. I have always been a very happy person. And these days I find myself crying and feeling down a lot.
I going to read  the THE SECRET and see if that can help me out.

Plus, each evening I'm going to make a point and taking one hour just for me to read! No TV, just read.
Now that sounds relaxing. I would also like to get out into my garden and start weeding... I love that!

Done talking about diets....

Man I suck at staying on a diet... Need to stop talking about it. Had a terrible weekend, actually the last 11 days I spent over at Bryan & Ashley's new house, painting and moving and cleaning. Their house looks great. But I have decided I need to try to be a better person and stop making comments about others. No matter how worthless they make me feel. I need to keep my comments to myself. And that's that. I will have to find another way to vent. For one I need to start taking care of myself and exercise and I'd love to get out in my garden and get some work done there.
I don't understand why some people can say mean things to me, and when I respond I am a terrible person. I just don't get it.
Apparently I am not allowed to speak, only allowed to be made to feel terrible and then keep my mouth shut.
Well that's all for now. Nothing about dieting today.

Day 2 @ Body Camp Challenge

Feeling good, not really hungry. Today I had:

B:  egg/sausage cup & sausage
L:  SF pudding & cheese
S:  sunflower seeds & diet Pepsi

I think for dinner I will have chicken and ? ~I really need to eat some veggies. I will go to the store and get some broccoli, that actually sounds good.

I have been drinking about 52 oz of water, need to bump that up to 64.

Day 1 new plan

OK I found a new plan!! Whoo Hoo It's called Body Camp Challenge.
So for the next two weeks.... It's NO carbs, No Sugar which is good. I can have meat, cheese, eggs, veggies. Sugar free jello and fudge bars and other foods I can't remember right now.
But since about the only veggy I like is green beans. I might have to go out on a limb and try something new!
Also, we are having a Biggest Loser Competition at work. So there's a little bit of an incentive for me.
I think I can handle this. It's only 2 weeks. I'm a big girl and that's not very long....

Diet Diet Diet

I really have to find a good diet to follow... I am just not in the mood! :0) Don't really know what I'm going to do.
But summer will be here eventually and I would like to be ready for it. Feel comfortable wearing capris and sleeveless shirts. But I need to get in gear.
 I always do this. I search high and low for the diet for me. And then I last one whole week and then I blow it. Which is really just wasting time and coming up with excuses, like Spring Break is here and Ryder's b-day party is here, why would I start a diet now???? With all that good food to eat.
I hate to admit it but I might just have to go back to following Weight Watchers, I know it works and I can eat anything. Oh man... I just need to do something. I have a very physical job and it's get rather diffucult when my stomach gets in the way of bending over. HA
So I'm on a quest to find the right diet for ME! I was even thinking of counting calories.....Hum I,must ponder that.

Picture day

 Ryder @ Nama's work

 Ryder & Nama being funny

 Bryan

 Ryder just like Daddy

 Bryan & Ashley

Ryder @ Toys R US

Monday Boo Hoo

Well I had a great week and lost a bit over 3 lbs. Then Sunday come along and I thought I was doing OK, I had my cocoa with skim milk and this morning I did not lose an ounce. That is really shitty. And makes me want to eat. So far today I have been fine.  So we will see....

Sunday 1 week w/Jorge

Well I could have done better today. But I did OK.  We shall see what the scale says in the morning.

Whoo Hoo it's Friday

Day 5 w/Jorge.... I am so happy I stuck with it for 5 whole days....and it's Friday!

BS - 179

OK
Breakfast: 0/0
2 sausage pattie (0/0)

BS 144

Lunch: 6/2
Wendy's small Chili (6/2)
Cheese (0/0)
Sour cream (0/0)

Snack 3/0
Cocoa (3/0)
BS

Dinner 1/1
English Muffin (1/1)
Butter (0/0)




Cocoa 3/0

Total 13/4

I make my cocoa with Unsweetned Almond Breeze & Sugar Free Nestle Cocoa powder
*BS= Blood Sugar

Whoo Hoo Day 4 w/Jorge!!!

Wow I made it to day # 4, now for me lately that is fantastic. I don't know how many Monday's I started some sort of diet program.

Breakfast: 0/0

Forgot my Atkins Drink so
4 sasauge patty's (0/0)
which was good because 2 hrs after my blood sugar wa 168, which for me is great.
So I guess to many carbs in the drink.

Lunch 0/0

Meatballs (0/0)
Cheese (0/0)

Snack: (0/1)
Crackers (0/1)
Cream Cheese (0/0)

Dinner: 6/2
Wendy's Chili (6/2)

Cocoa 3/0

Total 9/3

Weigh in day is Monday....Plus I measured my waist.
I should take a picture but I really don't want to.

Day 3 w/Jorge

Whoo Hoo Day 3 and I have a spliting headache.. probably from lack of good ole sugar.
Other than the headache I feel good.

Breakfast 1/1
Atkins Drink (1/1)
2 sausage (0/0)

Lunch 2/2
WW Meal (2/2)

Snack 1/1
Crackers (1/1)
Cream Cheese

Dinner 5/1
Toast (2/1)
Butter (0/0)
Cocoa (3/0)



Snack 3/0
Cocoa (3/0)

Daily Totals 12/5

Day # 2 w/Jorge Cruise

Wow 2 days! Usually after day 3 my headache will go away.
Here's my menu for today:

Breakfast: 1/1
Atkins Drink (1/1)
2 sausage patty's (0/0)

Lunch: 3/3
WW Meal (3/3)

Dinner: 5/1
Toast (2/1) Eggs (0/0) Butter (0/0) cocoa (3/0)

Snack: 3/1
Cocoa (3/1)

Had a good day, drank some water, moved a lot of boxes and bins at work, took a nap :) Day 2 a success!